This is something I threw together in class today. I was inspired by a story I read in the National Post the other day a boy who had muscular dystrophy and was bullied by two boys, who stole his ipod and pushed him on his face into the street. The boy later killed himself, and he was only 11 years old.
I was further inspired by a local story about a boy in Moncton who had to switch schools because the bullying he endured was so bad.
This poem is a rough, haphazard mess and seems more like two poems than one. But’s it what naturally flowed from me and it felt wrong to change it. I experienced bullying during high school but not to a major extent. It saddens me that our world is one in which this can happen. Eleven year old boys should not be taking their own lives.
This is Dedicated to Mitchell Wilson. I didn’t know you and I never will, but I’m sorry your life ended in such awful circumstances.
My heart is changing color
it’s no longer a subtle hue
it’s darkening with every word
that you scream at me
those profanities that make you laugh?
well, they make me quease
they hurt me to my core
and make me wish
to live no more
my soul is breaking down
disintegrating in thin air
I’m losing grasp on sanity
while you antagonize me
those insults that entertain the class?
Well, they make me cry
not in front of you, of course
no I wouldn’t want to give you
more material for those stupid jokes
my life is fading away
while you gain popularity
yeah, everyone loves the class bully
But no one notices me,
hanging from the hallway cieling
Yet no prosecution will be laid
because you say you didn’t know
that you made me feel like
a piece of shit
while you felt like a king
But everyone will show up
at my dark and gloomy funeral
facades of caring will paint a picture
of boy who everyone loved
But where were they well I was crying
and contemplating the end?
Where were they when I put the noose
around my hanging head?
Those jokes you thought were funny?
Well they hurt me too much to bear.
And sticks and stones may break my bones
but your bullying just killed me.